Nora was screaming for at least an hour. I put her to bed but she woke up when Jules went out… although he closed the door as quietly as he could.

Usually I would take her to our bed and sleep with her but things has to change. We’re not on holiday anymore and we don’t have to worry about waking up hotel guests or my mom’s neighbours… so when she woke up the first couple of times, I went and hug her and tried to shush her back to sleep. But she kept waking up over and over again… so I left her to cry.

And boy did she cry!

She’s gone quiet again now… I really hope that she understands that it was really hard for me too to not get up and hold her tight. I hope she remembers that I love her…

Earlier today… as we were sitting on the sofa, instead of headbutting me, she leaned over and gave me a kiss and laughed… and kissed me again. It was a lovely moment… and I hope she’ll do it again… even though I left her to cry.

I texted Jules as I was worried that Nora would hate me… and Jules tole me that she loves me that she cries her eyes out for me. I hope that is true.